Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Nikkie's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
3:30 pm	see in life what i dont get is how people are.. i do but why do they have to be so selfish.. why are all bitches back stabbing whores.. i mean i love him but he cant promise he wont cheat on me but if i say that he will break up with me.. he will try not to wtf.. and yesterday i ighnored him to confront sum chik and he did the same thing but he left wen i did it.. see i donno we get into the littlest fights over stupid shit cuz i was talking to sumone he does shit all the time that i f i did hed leave me for.. so wtf i mean i love him so much im willing to give up everything for him but only if he does the same.. he needs to stop talking to his exes in order for me to stop talking to mine.. but i will stil stop talking to them anyways.. but its hard theyre everywere around me ive dated almost everyone i know.. i dont know anymore this relationship is getting so complicated.. and it hurts so much but i want it to work.. i dont wanna give up i love him and i wanna be with him no matter what it takes!!! x3 Nikkie Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Monday, May 22nd, 2006
4:15 pm	The vision ²²² The Vison Of Him Is Stained In My Eyes... His Voice Echos In My Empty Head... BUT He Spoke LIES!!... So Now The Vison Has Become A Blur... A nd The Voice Has Fadded Away........ .²²² Current Mood: bitchy (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
2:01 am	love im so in love with him.. it scares me.. im so afraid to get hurt but i trust him when we first started dating it was only suppost to be a rebound and for only a week but we fell for echother and things are great.. ya we have our fights but wat couple doesnt i swear i wanna marry him and have his babies actually i am marrying him next month its all planed out he asked me to marry him.. i cant wait forever and alwayz..wen im with him its like the smile never goes away.. its like my heart wont stopp rushing.. the blood shoots through my body so fast... i wont stop loving you untill forever is through... i just cant stop thinking of him.. im like so past madly in love id do anything for him.. and it scares me.. i must go now x3 Nikkie Current Mood: jubilant (Comment on this)
1:51 am	life sux im bored and im on the phone with jake.. my babii is suicidal.. i feel bad i wish i could be there by his side i mean ohsically.. this sux im gonna have to stay up all nite to make sure hes ok.. im tired but i will do it anyways cuz i love him.. today i didnt go to school.. and to,,arow im going to the carnival with amber and ill see jake there im also going shopping i cant wait.. well im gona go x3 Nikkie Current Mood: worried (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 18th, 2006
11:11 pm	Dear Diary my life is spiraling downward. i couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry Concert. It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like 'Stab My Heart Because I Love You,' and 'Rip Apart My Soul,' and of course, 'Stabby Rip Stab Stab." and it doesn't help that i couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band could do, some days you know. . . i'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be you'd be non-conforming to if u look just like me i have paint on my nails and make-up on my face i'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs 'cause i feel real deep when i'm dressing in drag i call it freedom of expression most just call me a f*g 'cause their dudes look like chicks, their chicks look like d*kes 'cause emo is one step below transvestite stop my breathing and slit my throat i must be emo i don't jump around when i go to shows i must be emo i'm dark and sensitive with low self-esteem the way i dress makes everyday feel like Hallowe'en i have no real problems but i like to make believe i stole my sister's mascara now i'm grounded for a week sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies i can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing girls keep breaking up with me, it' never any fun they say they already have a p*ssy, they don't need another one stop my breathing and slit my throat i must be emo i don't jump around when i go to shows i must be emo dye in my hair and polish on my toes i must be emo i play guitar and write suicide notes i must be emo my life is just a black abyss, you know, it's so dark. and it's suffocating me. grabbing ahold of me and tightening it's grip, tighter than a pair of my little sister's jeans . . . which look great on my by the way when i get depressed i cut my wrists in every direction hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection i write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses i told my friends i bleed black and cry during classes i'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth you can read me "Catcher in the Rye," and watch me jack off i wear skin tight clothes while hating my life if i said i like girls i'd only be half right i look like i'm dead and dress like a homo i must be emo screw XBOX i play old school Nintendo i must be emo i like to whine and hate my parentals i must be emo me and my friends all look like clones i must be emo my parents just don't get me you know. they think i'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy. well, a couple of guys. but i mean, it's the 2000s. can't 2, or 4 dudes make-out with each other without being gay. i mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways. i don't know diary, sometimes i think you're the only one that gets me, you're my best friend. . . . i feel like tacos Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
8:28 pm	bordism hello there.. omg i just realized if me nd kaitlin were still dating it would be our one year anniversary today.. kelly just left we were hanging out.. we hung out with her ex eddie hes pretty kool.. i brought Rob for a walk.. and took him home cuz he got cold.. i got a new pack of squares today too.. nothing rllie special has happened today.. im so bored.. like wow.. i miss jake a lot.. but anyways im bored and im gonna go eat and take a shower.. x3 Nikkie Current Mood: artistic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 16th, 2006
2:58 pm	itz been a while wow its been so long since iwrote in this.. lately so much drama has went down.. like im ingaged for one. two Nikkie and me are broken up. three i dated jennifer twice.. four everyone of my friends at truman talks shit behind everyones back and im so sick of it.. everyone fights ansd acts like best friends the next day.. everyones a pissface liar.. me and jake got into a fight but we made up.. i think i may still have feeling for an ex.. but im not sure.. i also died my hair quite a few time rite now its red.. ***My Quote*** I believe in him and i swear i do.. i always will.. for every reason i shal come across not to will be disbeileved.. he hurt me over and over again but were together alwayz and forever.. ***My picture*** Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
12:27 pm	Life of the unknown hey well i havent wrote in a couple days so wat has happened lately is i skipped class.. and when i did i splashed soap everywere which was great cuz it was all over my face and i walked outta the bathroom and said u missed to some random guy nd he laughed.. and ariel nd me were walking she said to some random guy i thought he was hott nd he goes oo cutie in a gay guy voice and it was funnie.. then they called my house and i got grounded for skipping. and my bed stuff came and im just waiting on the curtains now. and me nd nikkie made up after fighting again.. and im still single.. ______________________Highlights______________________ 1. i saw kyle and talked to him. 2. my dad just called me. 3. i got two detentions. 4. i sent Nikkie a carnation gram. ______________________Quote of the day_____________________ And now i see why its so easy to blame everything ____________________________What i look like today__________________ x3 Nikkie Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
1:31 pm	Nvr meant to make it this far... today well i didn't go to school cuz i definately didn't feel like it... i went to staples and then burger king and walked by dots and fell in love with a shirt i didnt buy.. tear tear.. and well thetre was a hott guy that worked at burger king.. and thats it.. _____________highlights_____________ 1. i saw a rllie cute shirt. 2. a hott guy served me my food at burgerking. 3. i got a new pack of smokes. 4.i took the bandaide of my face.. ________________Quote of the Day_________________ SEE THE PICTURE...WIPE OFF THE DUST LOOK AT THE FRAME, IT'S STARTING TO RUST REMMEBER THE TIMES THAT WE HAD TOGETHER?? WHAT HAPPENED TO BEING TOGETHER ALWAYZ AND FOREVER... __________What i look like today__________ Current Mood: mischievous (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
10:53 pm	Told it wasnt meant to be././. today wasn't all that intresting.. i mean it was just another day. i woke up brushed my teeth. smoked a cig. went to school. talked to friends. skipped third block. came home. and im grounded. and watched t.v. __________HIGHLIGHTS__________ 1. well i lost 13 pounds in two weeks since ive been out of the hospital 2. david told me hes gonna be a daddy.. 3. miguel nd me are not allowed to hang out. 4. i cut my face open on a glass table.. 5. i pushed ariel in my pool.. 6. i went to the modern exchange and met a rllie hott guy named travis and i like him lots and i still talk to himm... YAY!! _______Quote of the day__________ And its so hard to forget someone who PROMISED they'll ALWAYZ be THERE.. ________Wat i looked like today_________ Current Mood: apathetic (3 Comments |Comment on this)